September of 2015
Why don’t we teach our kids these things?
Why do they not know
Until it affects them personally?
Left to Google search these things
Left to ponder their loneliness
Left to wonder where this monster crawled from
Nobody warned them.
A household term to us
But can our children spell the word?
Do our children know their worth?
When we are too sad
To teach them?
Is it up to them to learn these things?
Why don’t we tell them?
Because we want the world to seem
Blue and green
And the sun it always shines
And the darkness
Remains at night?
Why don’t we tell them?
That the world
Is shades of grey
Black and blue
And the day draws on
A darker shade
Each day that we decay away?
I just can’t find the words
To tell them.
That everything we’ve told them
Was just a fantastical imagination
An illusory correlation
Of your mind as an inspiration
And life as a constant source of gratification
I can’t spell out
The pain that eats my soul
So hard to ignore
So hard to believe
That at one time
I was young and proud
I hadn’t yet found out
How silence makes a sound
And violence is more than just a pound
And that your wounds
Become a part of you
And redefine you
And you look back and remember
The child you once were
And your life is a blur
And all you see are the bad parts.
It is so EASY to remember the bad parts
And look to the future with hope and possibility
That one day
You will hold a child in your arms
And that child will learn from you
And your flaws
Will fortify your bond
And you will raise a soul
That never has to find out on her own what
That never has to hide her fear
And act like she’s just an average kid
Lord knows she isn’t
If she’s yours
And you’re going to make so damn sure
(strong) That there is nothing wrong with mental illness.
You do not need to Google search depression
I am the only database you need
Listen-you come to me
If you’re ever down and you can’t
Find your way out
And I promise you whatever
Scars you may get
I bear one that is almost the same
You are my soul
And you are my name
And I’m sorry if you inherited
Some of the pain
But you will NEVER be to blame
For my sadness
And I promise I will lift myself up
And not resort to old behaviors
And always put your happiness first
And remember that I am molding you
The things that I do
Frame your mentality
And I will live and breathe reality
And positivity for you
And you will never feel alone.
But if you do,
Find yourself at home
In my heart.
And appreciate that I understand your struggles
And know that at the age of eighteen
I made a vow to teach you about
My heart is your home
And you will never be alone
But if you feel like you are
Remember I am covered in scars
And you never have to hide your sorrow from me
You are not just a drop in the sea
You are the sea in a drop
And I love you a lot.