Because I was willing to walk to the ends of earth for you after only knowing you for a few weeks
Because I let you take up my mental and physical space
Attach to me, become a part of me
Because I opened up and went against my better judgment to trust someone who told me they were horrible
Because I played the fool and trusted you so soon
Believed you when you said you’d never ghost me
Would be there if I needed help
Would potentially love me
Travel with me
Be with me for at least a little while
Because I believed everything you said like I knew you after so short a time
Because you were really a stranger I met online who I convinced myself I loved
Because It’s my fault I’m suffering because of what you did to me
I’m letting go of the illusion of easy love
Love takes years
I thought I loved you at first sight because of the strong connection
But I didn’t know your faults or how you’d hurt me
I loved the idea of you
I loved the idea of being loved
Without knowing the lover
Know your lover better than you know yourself
Know that pretty words can mean nothing
Know that relationships take time and work
Know that nothing is promised, even promises
Know that we let our faults destroy us
Know that we’re all guilty of hurting others
And being hurt
Know that I know you’re human and I wish we had recognized that in one another
I don’t want to hold humans to high standards anymore
I accept your mistakes
But do you accept mine?
Or will you punish me for eternity for one slip?
The punishment doesn’t fit the crime
Whatever love you put out there,
I convinced myself belonged to me,
It was never mine.
MERRI WORDS 